Thank you, Precious Friends, with all my heart, for every expression of birthday love.
I want to acknowledge a couple things. First, I seldom have a tough day. I stumble, but I stay on my feet. And in the process, I know the sweetness of hard work. And sometimes it doesn’t even feel like hard work. It feels more like, yes, I’m doing this! I feel the reward of growth before actually reaping it. That’s not so tough. And that describes my Sunday. I fell asleep crying, but it was a soul-searching, contemplative cry, not a sad cry.
And then there was Monday, my actual birthday. I could anticipate the sweetness of the pain, but I was hurting. And there were moments when the reward didn’t seem worth the pain. I knew it was, intellectually, but there were moments when I didn’t feel up to it.
On Tuesday, yesterday, I made this post: “My capacity for joy can’t exceed my capacity for pain. And so it is with a brave and grateful heart that I face both.”
By last night, I was reveling in love’s peace and joy again, the kind that always follows a good round of pain.
I don’t ever want to forget that pain is inherent in growth, empathy, and compassion.… More